2/6/12

Relating to the Lord,

This has been a week of mystery, emotion, relation, learning, and more than I know. Having friends has been an important part of living- whether seeing them around, or at, or away from school, I have sought to be with them. It’s been good sharing meals, talking over life, and being affected by their influence.

I think about the Lord’s friendship with me, and how he brings me to certain verses at just the right time, and how everything He does is right. He has helped me this week through things I haven’t done rightly, and He shapes and conforms my mind to think as He does- and to be even controlled by Him.

He, in Himself, is enough. To have mindset on Him, security and hope in Him, trusting in Him with all my heart, reflecting on Who He is and what He has done is best. To invite Him to be living in me, controlling and leading me, is what He wants. The reality of Him having a will has come as glorious truth this week.

Being entirely honest with Him is most important. Sharing all of my heart, reflecting on everything with Him, and going forward confidently of Who He is will declare Him and tell of Who He is. Words have been a struggle for me in the past, and going from quiet times this week began to change this.

Still, I did not use them rightly all the time, but I began to expose more of myself with the Lord and this seemed to really invite Him into every other part of conversation/words I’d have with others later. There were friends I hadn’t ever met before, who I got to meet this week and get to know a little more. To the Lord’s praise, He began to really show from me willingness again to ask how others are.

One friend told me how he had been a homosexual. A most dear friend told me of things from her past that made me angry with others who were called her friends. A brother in Christ gave me friendship with him through solidarity in our struggle with what we had said in surplus, overburdening the precious women the Lord had placed us in one-to one, romantic relationship and companionship with.